mwah to all my friends....especially my brazialian boy....you really made my nite tonite....lots of kudos....u really know how to cheer me up...i am lucky to have u as a friend....thank you!!!!!!!!

Hmm....only sweet dreams can come from tonite.....

side note:  no more looking down at life...i realize today i have a lot going for me and i don't need my past to hold me back or drag me down....thank you!

sitting here and contemplating on my life i realize that there are only 4 weeks left until my graduation and I realize what a change that will be....kinda of what the high school passage was but to a higher extent in the sense that now its time to take responsibility and prove myself in the real world.  Life is completely going to change in the sense that i will barely see my friends...i won't have the luxury of arranging my daily schedule to my convenience and just in general being carefree.....but i guess everyone has to grow up at some time.....

thinking about this has made me reflect on my entire semester and I realize i really like the person i am becoming and how I have strenghtened myself to what i wanted to become.  I have to say I am proud of myself....but at the same time i am scared that this may not last forever like i want it to....there are a few ppl in my world who can make me weak and conquer me....and i am just afraid of even letting them into my life...where they mite ruin what i have going for me....hmmm....i know the solution to just not let them in...but at the same time part of me longs for them and wants their companionship....its amazing how we let a few ppl affect our lives to such a great extent....

well regardless....thats a battle in my life i must face and really determine my strenghts and see if i really have come as far as i think i have.....

back to the note of graduation....it will be a bittersweet event in my life....part of me like this carefree life and will miss my friends....but at the same time i am excited to enjoy a summer off and move on in my life and begin an entire new chapter....

i really wonder what lies ahead of me........

just got back from my retreat with the sorority and it was a great weekend.....

the place was so nice...by the lake and it was just beautiful....a very nice time....it was too short but it was a good time....

alrite...so i just noticed that i haven't written this in the journal in like ages....and lot has happened since then...some good some bad....but i do have to say that i am happy with where i am today....

I was in a slump for a while but I am glad where i am today...back to being in control of my life....its great.

Life is GREAT!!!

wow...so still not better....but still feeling a lot better than how i was all week...

well just wanted to say my downfall is finally over....atleast i think

mera yaar mila de saaiya.....

will the wounds ever heal...

will the pain go away....

i go with my life day by day....

wondering if the day will come...

where my heart doesn't ache...

will i ever reach the place...

where dreams come true...

will my heart fill with joy...

when will the void in my heart disappear...

its feel as if forever the pain will remain.....